I don’t have much to rant about for this week; just a quick update. I started school this week. I was terrified. Like honestly, terrified. Somehow, I got myself across town to my first class (not sure how that happened as public transport sends me into massive panic attacks). I was so early I had to wait in the lobby watching everyone else arriving for 40 minutes. At one point I had wound myself up so much that I was pretty much too petrified to move/leave even if I tried. However, I did it! I walked into my first class with a bunch of humans who were most likely also nervous and uncomfortable like myself. But it’s great and so exciting! I’m three days in and I’m enjoying it so much!
It is so easy to turn and run away from things we find difficult. But what kind of life is that! If I did that, I wouldn’t leave my room. I would stay home every day, watch tv and let life pass me by. It might be hard, it might even seem impossible some days but I’m not going to lay down and let everything I have and everything I want and wish for – slip away.
As I touched on last week, you have to believe in yourself and your dreams and sometimes that means making massive life-changing decisions. For me, quitting my job and going back to school was a massive life-changing decision. But I am doing it. I’m venturing into the unknown equipped with nothing but belief in myself and my dream of making films. I’m jumping off the cliff in the hope that somehow I start to fly!
I’ll leave you with a little quote from Mama Ru’s (Ru Paul) hit song “Sissy That Walk” which I try to listen to when I’m feeling low.
“And if I fly, or if I fall. Least I can say, I gave it all.”
Remember to pop back in on Friday night for our weekly film review, this week is on “Mamma Mia: Here We Go Again”.
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